I just don't know.

I couldn't watch as Julie drove off this morning. This whole 'not seeing her for a month, seeing her for 3 days and then having her leave for another month' thing has fucked me up. I'm an emotional train wreck. It's really quite odd. I don't do this very often. I tend to just quietly deal with my issues in my head. Now I feel the need to blog about my feelings? How Junior high is that?

I do miss grade school though. Thems were some good/bad times.

I hear from several reputable sources that life just gets harder and as you look back you'll see how easy you had it. Well fuck. Right? If life is just an obstacle course you eventually lose then the game is rigged. What if I just want to play on the swings?